Dear, OCD I’m in charge now

Hello, my bucket list friends . Last month I wrote quite a few posts about my TMS treatments for OCD . If you want to read them just look at my posts on this blog from February 2019. Anyways, I thought it would be a good idea to give an update on how I’m doing since treatment.Hold on tight and here we go !

 

Dear OCD, I’m in charge now

In my previous posts about TMS I wrote about some of the changes that occurred during treatments. OCD began to lose it’s grip on me and I was feeling more in control then ever before. Well, I’m happy to say that things have continued to improve. Before receiving the TMS treatments, OCD controlled a large part of my day. It was always controlling what I could and could not wear, what songs I could and couldn’t listen to, what order I had to put the blankets on my bed and many more things that impacted my everyday life. I felt anxiety that if I didn’t follow OCD’s orders bad things would happen . I never truly realized just how much of my time that OCD took from me.  Now, things are very different I’m in charge now. I’m able to make my own everyday choices with feeling little to no anxiety. If OCD stars to give me orders I remind it that I’m in charge now and I do what I want to do. I was so used to following OCD’s orders that now sometimes I have to stop and ask myself what I want to do . I feel so free now! Now , don’t get me wrong life is not perfect and it never will be but I feel a lot better now that I’m free from OCD’s control. OCD still sneaks in with it’s unwanted thoughts from time to time but I can dismiss these thoughts faster and easier then ever before ! I’m so happy that I took part in the study at Stanford. Things are looking up.

Rock on – Christina Epperly

 

Getting ready for TMS and a trip to the American girl store

Hello, my bucket list friends ! Next week I’ll be up at Stanford all week for TMS treatment. Today I went for one more appointment before my treatments officially start also I finished my appointment early enough to walk across the street to the Stanford shopping center. It was quite a day and I’m excited to tell you all about it . Here we go !

 

Getting ready for TMS and a trip to the American girl store

I had a two hour appointment scheduled at Stanford today . This appointment took place in a different building then the MRI scan did. ( you can read about my MRI HERE ) I have been to this building before for other appointments related to the study . Today I talked to a doctor about some of my OCD symptoms then it was time to meet the TMS machine . today we were just figuring out the right way to set the machine for my treatments since everyone’s bodies are different . After getting it all sorted out I was done for the day . I still had sometime before my ride came so I walked across the street to the Stanford shopping center . It wasn’t raining when I left my house so I didn’t bring any rain gear but it was raining pretty good by the time I left my appointment . I got a little wet on the walk over to the shopping center but not to bad . I love American girl dolls so I was excited to go shopping at the two story American Girl store. I have been to the store before but it’s been awhile.  I bought two books . The first one I decided to buy was a book about Blair the girl of the year for 2019 . The 2nd book was a brain teaser book filled with fun puzzles. I also got some free stickers . I spent a while walking around the store looking at all the dolls and other items . I really like this store it’s so fun and decorated very nicely . After going to the American Girl store I got some lunch at Starbucks. It was packed day and I’m both nervous and excited for next week . I can’t wait to tell you how it all goes !

Rock On – Christina Epperly

 

 

My first MRI ( OCD research)

Hello my bucket list friends ! On Monday I did something pretty exciting,I got my first ever MRI . I was nervous at first but it was an interesting new experience and I can’t wait to share it with you .  Now I’m not sick or anything , I’m lucky enough to be participating in an OCD research study at Stanford. With all that being said here is the story of my first MRI.

 

 

My first MRI

I’ve been doing the pre-screening for this study for a while now but I didn’t want to say anything on this blog until things got going .  The study will be researching TMS treatments for people with OCD. TMS has been used for OCD and other mental health conditions but usually the treatments are done in a time span of 4-6 weeks . For this study I will be doing the treatments for one week . The study will see how effective the treatments are in the span of a week . During the study I will be getting two MRI scans . The first one was completed on Monday and the second one will be done after the TMS treatments are completed. On Monday I went to Stanford University to get my first MRI. I arrived about 45 minutes early so I had some time to explore the beautiful campus . It was raining on and off that day and I had to keep my hair dry for the MRI so I kept my hood on most of the time while I was exploring .  My favorite thing about the campus was this big beautiful fountain I took so many pictures by it . After some exploring it was time for the MRI. I was nervous but it wasn’t that bad at all .  I did some paper work then I got dressed up in some fancy blue scrubs. After putting in some ear plugs it was time to say hello to the MRI machine . I felt nice and cozy in the machine it wasn’t bad at all in there.  It was loud even with ear plugs and you can call me weird if you want but I kind of liked the noise .  I was in there for about 90 minutes I think. When it was done I felt a little dizzy but not bad I was very tired that night but it is all worth it to be apart of this amazing study .

Rock on – Christina Epperly

 

A different kind of January

Hello, my bucket list friends ! Usually January is notorious for being a slow month that drags on . It always seems that way to me but this January flew by . It’s a weird feeling . We just had new year’s eve and now February is on it’s way. The stores are filled with Valentine’s day items and each day we get closer to welcoming February . Why did this January fly by so fast compared to the ones I’ve experienced in the past ? The answer is I’m not sure . I mean I did work a lot but I know I have done that in years past too . Maybe it was the weather we did have some really nice sunny days maybe that was the reason ? We had rain too so I just don’t know . I just know that it feels weird . I think I was excepting a more relaxing month but that just didn’t happen . I was busy , working hard and trying to keep my stress level down .  Now don’t get me wrong this month was not a waste I crossed two items off my bucket list ( you can read about them HERE and HERE ),had great times with family and friends and chowed down on some yummy food . It just feels weird that it’s over all ready . Oh well time to set all the weird feeling aside and look forward to February !

Here are some January pictures !

Stuck in the bucket list rut

Hello, my bucket list friends ! I just recently wrote about about living the bucket list life everyday ( you can read it here )  but to be honest I’m stuck in a rut right now I haven’t crossed any thing new off my list since November ! It’s really bothering me . So what’s a bucket lister to do in times like this ? Make plans to cross off more items of course ! I tried to cross one off on a whim but that didn’t work out, so it’s time to make plans to get more items crossed off . I took the plunge and signed up for a 10k in April. I also have plans to cross an item that involves a swimming pool, It really helps to review your list there might some items you forgot about . It reminded me that I needed to keep working on my wreck this journal so I can finish it and get it crossed off the list . My plans for future list items bring a smile to my face. I can’t wait to cross off another list item and tell you all about it !

Rock on – Christina Epperly

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2018 my year in review

Hello, my bucket list friends ! 2018 was quite a year and it’s hard to believe that it is coming to an end already . The last few months of the year always seem to fly by and 2018 was no exception . So before we move into 2019 let’s dive on into a review of my 2018.

 

 

 

2018 my year in review

2018 was a jam packed year , I was able to accomplish a lot ! I Crossed 9 things off my bucket list including going to the Mall of America, petting a zebra and Meeting Alice Cooper !  I Traveled to some amazing places , passed the Mblex ,became a certified massage therapist, Went to my first comic con, and spent time with the some of the people I love most. I also spent some time doing some of my favorite things such as  blogging , drawing , shopping ,  going on walks, swimming and going to the movies . This year also had some hard times as well . I had my fair share of heath problems this year including a trip to the ER on my birthday and my family went without a refrigerator for way to long . I also lost an irreplaceable friend who had always been in my life .  This year was definitely a roller coaster of a year with some amazing ups and really tough downs. This year was a thrill ride for sure and I’m very proud of everything that I accomplished but I hope 2019 is more like a lazy river . Below I have put links to posts of some of this years adventures and some photos from this year ! I can’t wait to share more adventures with all of you in 2019 !

Rock on – Christina Epperly

Bucket list items crossed off this year

Dyeing my hair green

Finishing an entire coloring book

Standup paddle boarding

Go on a road trip with friends

Pet a zebra

Go to Mall of America

Go backstage at a concert and meet Alice Cooper

Make a perfect cupcake

 

Travel adventures

Trip to Redding

Weekend in Monterrey

Spring Break in Idaho

Reno on the way to Idaho

Road trip to Idaho

Summer fun in Idaho

Minnesota vacation

Dallas Vacation part 1

Dallas Vacation part 2

Dallas Vacation part 3

Dallas Vacation part 4

 

Health Problems

My Crazy health problems

Birthday in the ER

I don’t have time to be sick

Refrigerator problems

The great refrigerator saga of 2018

The end of the refrigerator saga

A few Fun adventures

News boys Concert

Super Hero 5k

4 boxes of ponies

Oakland Zoo

Summer Mall weekend 2018

 

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I don’t have time to be sick!

Hello , my bucket list friends ! This post is going to be a bit of a rant but have you ever been sick at a very inconvenient time ? I mean I guess there is never a good time to get sick but there are sometimes that are better or worse than others .When I was a kid my family got the flu during Christmas time . It was definitely  not fun at all . Well currently I’m dealing with a very inconvenient sickness . On Tuesday I had to leave work early because I was feeling so sick . I was also unable to go to my second job that afternoon . Yesterday I missed an appointment and another shift of work . This morning I missed another shift at one of my jobs .In addition to missing all that work,on Tuesday night I was in horrible pain my abdomen was hurting so bad I thought I was going to have to going to the ER but fortunately the pain decreased and I was able to get some sleep. yesterday I was feeling very week and I didn’t to much but sleep and lay on the couch. Being sick is never fun but it’s hard for me to miss all this work when Christmas is coming and I have gifts to buy . The good news is I slept pretty well last night and I’m feeling ok today not 100% better but I feel well enough to make it to my afternoon job ! I’m excited to get back to work after being out for awhile . Stay Well my friends !

Rock on – Christina Epperly